Hi everyone! It’s been a while since I posted on this blog, but I needed some time off the blog to focus on other things in my life. I wanted to talk about what’s going on in my life for a while now, but as of the publishing of this post I still don’t think it’s the right time to talk openly about it. Instead, I’m going to focus on some of the life events that I do feel comfortable talking about online as well as why I choose to be gone from the blog for a while.
First, I’m not quitting this blog. I started it in 2011 and I still enjoy writing on it to this day. The only problem is I don’t like everything I choose to talk about here. I liked the posts I wrote about art, sewing, and photography and don’t want to change anything about it, but recent life changed forced me to look at this blog in a different way. Also, I don’t feel as inspired to create art just for posting on this blog. I never talked about this on this blog, but there are many sewing projects and photographs I posted on this blog for the sole purpose of having some sort of content to talk about. I never liked doing that and the projects I choose to sew were never my best sewing work. As for the photography, I liked the photographs I took, but I didn’t feel as proud of them as I did other photographs I took. Same goes for my art.
Since the ten years anniversary of this blog has come and gone, I started to seriously think about what I would ideally like to post here. Especially since this blog can also work as an online portfolio. So, I’m seriously considering posting art, sewing projects, photography, and anything else I worked on over the years that makes me happy about. I don’t know if or when I’ll be able to get around to writing and publishing posts about my old art, sewing, photography, and crafts. It depends on how inspired I feel, how much time I have to work on them, and/or if they belong on this blog or my lifestyle blog The Estella Initiative.
Secondly, and finally, for the past few months I’ve been struggling with healing from my illness. I’m doing well and I fortunately didn’t have the Coronavirus, but I still struggle with my allergies, side effects of them, and trying to make my body move after years of illness. I’m moving much easier now, but for the past month I would move my body in a normal way, but, due to the illness I had years ago, I would immediately become sore and be in pain. I’ve been able to manage it with warm baths and heating pads (Which is what my doctors told me to do) but the frequency of these muscle pains and strains catch me off guard on a highly regular basis and force me to take more time than I want to rest and recover.
The problems with movements are improving, but I must be careful and mindful of my movements whenever I do things such as clean, garden, and pick things up. In order to force myself to limit my movements to ones I’m used to and save my energy for the more painful ones I do without knowing, I decided to delay working on any sewing projects until my body becomes stronger and much better at moving than it currently is. I also decided to limit my travel to help save energy. This also means I won’t be able to go as many places I want to take pictures without a friend to drive unless I cannot anymore. I can still draw though. I’ve been doing more sketches and enjoying the opportunity to sketch than I have previously.